Sunday, March 27, 2011

Faithfully Fit



The Thursday morning Bible Study that I've been attending now for a while just started this book a couple of weeks ago. It's a daily devotional book with homework each day that is designed to help you with discipline in all areas of life, but especially in the area of weight loss and healthy lifestyle. While I know that I can ALWAYS do better in this area of life, I started into this study feeling like it wasn't my greatest need at the moment... even though I'm definitely out of sync on my exercise routine and not too excited about swimsuit season coming up! So I will say that it is helping with motivation in those areas, for sure! But mostly I'm finding that the thoughts and scriptures and lessons are helpful in the fight against anything in life that has a hold on you. So I've been trying to apply it to those areas of my life and think about it from that perspective and it's been really helpful. So I just thought I'd share a poem that one of the authors wrote that I really liked:


Spirit Eyes

Let me see you in the battle and not just in the victory,
Let me see you in the darkness and not just in the dawn,
Let me see you in the trial and not just in the triumph,
Let it be your face of love I look upon.

Give me spirit eyes To see the truth behind the lies,
To find the hope that hides within despair.
Give me spirit eyes To look behind the world's disguise
And faith to know that I will find you there.

Let me see you in the present and not just in the future,
Let me see you in the sinner and not just in the saint,
Let me see you in the questions and not just in the answers
Help me find you in the loss and in the gain.


-- Claire Cloninger

For someone like me who has a tendency to only 'see' God in the victories, this wa s a really good reminder that He is there every step of the way, at all times. :)

Friday, March 18, 2011

Access Denied

Men. Can't live with them. Can't live without them. Ever heard that one?


(Disclaimer: I promise this post really isn't about bashing men...
I just thought this cartoon was really funny.)


Well... I'm feeling that way about DOCTORS lately. Very thankful for them. Really, really annoyed with them too!

This started a couple of weeks ago. I was at my sister's house. She had just gotten out of the hospital and things were clearly not quite right with her. We knew something was going on with her medications, but we didn't know what to do about it. We needed a doctor. But she didn't have a primary care doctor - only a whole bunch of specialists. SO, I set about making phone calls to find a primary care doctor for her. I was armed with a list of recommendations from friends... how hard could this be, right?

"You have reached blah, blah, blah... if this is an emergency, please hang up and dial 911."

"If you know your party's extension, please dial it now."

"Please listen carefully to the following options...."

Each time I finally reached a human being, I was then put on hold while I was transferred again.

My first call ended with "I'm sorry, he's not taking new patients."

Next, "Our first available appointment is in August." (Wow, THAT's helpful...)

Next, "You've reached the nurse's line for Dr. ______, please leave your name, your number and a brief message and we'll call you back." (I left a message - they didn't call back.)

After two days of no returned calls and no progress, we resorted to desperate measures. This time I was trying to communicate with one of my sister's specialists and was told that they couldn't talk to me because I was not 'authorized' on my sister's privacy notice. grrrrrr..... SO, I took my sister who didn't need to be out and about and loaded her up in the car and we went, uninvited, to this doctor's office! We marched into the waiting room, signed the appropriate paperwork so they could talk to me, and were told to take a seat and they would have a nurse come and talk to us. 30 minutes later, we were still sitting... no one was going to come out. We spoke with the receptionist, made it VERY clear that we needed at least a phone call some time that day, and left. They never called.... not that day, not at all....

This is how I was feeling after that little adventure:



Finally, her admitting doctor who she had a good relationship with, helped us find our way to the right doctor and we got the help that we needed - what a relief! But what a nightmare to try and get help from a doctor who doesn't already have you in their system!

Fastforward to today. While visiting my sister to check on how she is doing, my dad started to feel bad and two days ago he had a heart attack. Oh my. Really? So now HE's in a Columbia hospital. Thankfully, after having a stent put in to open a blocked artery, he's doing fine. Good timing. Good care. This time I'm not there, so there's not much that I can do on that end. But I'm trying to do some things on this end. Talk to his primary care doctor. Make an appointment. (Done.) Find a cardiologist. Find out where they do Cardiac Rehab...

SO,

My sister talked to a local cardiolgist office.
Then she talked to me - they needed insurance information.
I talked to my dad - got the insurance numbers...
Called Blue Cross Blue Shield and asked lots of questions - the cardiologist we want is in the network - yay!
Called the cardiologist. "Oh, I'm sorry, we don't take medicare patients." (We went a few rounds on this, but I lost the argument.)
Called BCBS back. Found out that I probably didn't use the right words and didn't know the right questions to ask the cardiologist. They tried to call for me - the office was closed. (of course)

Now I will start all of this again on Monday. Oh yay. But at least I know what to say now.

***sigh***

So at some point along the day today (driving Anna to gym, I think) I was thinking about all of this and had this "What is God trying to teach me?" moment... and it occurred to me that I am SOOOOOOO thankful that God, the Great Physician, is ALWAYS accessible. ALWAYS. There's no voicemail, no nurses to run interference, no "I'm sorry, we're not taking new patients," no waiting for an appointment, no lack of insurance coverage.... God is just ALWAYS there. Ready to listen. He has answers that we need. He gives reassurance and understanding. He's patient and concerned. All the things you hope for in a good doctor. :) And I'm thankful that He's been hearing me all along this process. Though there have been frustrating times, at just the right time, breakthroughs have come and I believe that has been God's hand walking me through with what I needed at just the right time. HIS time.


"Therefore, since we have been justified through faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ, through whom we have gained access by faith into this grace in which we now stand. And we boast in the hope of the glory of God. Not only so, but we also glory in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not put us to shame, because God’s love has been poured out into our hearts through the Holy Spirit, who has been given to us."

-- Romans 5:1-5

Saturday, March 5, 2011

Outside My Window...

Outside my window... it's very dark and quiet.

I am thinking... that I probably should be in bed... ha.

I am wondering... what all I'm missing at home while I'm away.

I am thankful for... answered prayers, my sister getting better, and doctors that finally return phone calls!

In the learning rooms... I'm finding out more and more about the endocrine system and how much it affects every part of your body!

In the kitchen... a pile of now empty carry-out boxes that had lots of yummy leftovers from dinner last night.

I am wearing... black track pants and purple tech shirt - just about the same thing I was wearing the last time I posted. :)

I am creating... this blog post.

I am going... nowhere right now - well, except to my bedroom in a few minutes.

I am reading... a book called "A Redbird Christmas" that my Aunt Carolyn let me borrow at Christmas... I'm a little out of season with it now. :)

I am hoping... that my family hasn't forgotten what I look like. ;-)

I am hearing... a clock ticking and the hum of the computer.

Around the house... are lots of pretty flowers from caring friends.

I am praying... for wisdom and direction.

One of my favorite things... is being available enough at this time in my life to be where I'm needed... that's a blessing.

A picture to share... people that I miss the most right now!